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Kaden Mae's avatar

reading this transported me to exactly where i was at 22 in your very same shoes! such a pivotal moment in life, looking out into a great unknown and then trusting the leap you must take into it. years later I promise u will look back and be proud of that leap, whatever it looks like <3

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Elizabeth's avatar

we always have nothing to lose; there's a strangeness about it, yes? that we have all these things, and yet nothing. I wonder whether we'd cling to the edge of death if it had one, because from moment to moment everything changes, and we change too. if moment to moment is another change, then what was, exactly as it was before, is gone. what is, exactly as it is, is here. what's to be?

what's to be ?

and so, I think a question to ask is: where do you want to be at when you die?

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Inab.'s avatar

The answer would be too vague because death doesn't wait for anyone. Instead of thinking where you want to be, let's consider HOW we want to be when we die

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Elizabeth's avatar

i meant where as a proxy for how, where as in saying "where do you want to be in [x] years", its a covert form of asking you to describe how you want to be at that moment.

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Stephan 🌟🫶🏾's avatar

getting to read this made my heart warm so much! i definitely understand the feeling of being at a crossroads in your life, it can be really scary and it definitely brings a lot of wariness and anxiety, but it’s definitely very transformative. discovering yourself definitely takes introspection and self reflection, but inevitably it will make us grow and shed off old skin :) it was so nice to read this deb, and i hope you remember that you are so loved no matter who you are on the inside 🫶🏾🫶🏾

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paddie's avatar

this was so well written and genuinely profound, it helped quell so many of my summer anxieties/identity crises 🫶

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Inab.'s avatar

Ah, it's alright Dobo. You don't have to figure out life. Take a step towards what you love and let life figure out the rest. If the stars can shine so bright in darkness, SO CAN YOU

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tamyres's avatar

i graduated from college last december and i still feel exactly how you describe in this text. i'm too used to be a student. i got what i wanted, now what? i'm seriously considering going for a masters degree, just because i miss being at university. because i'm 25 and i cant find a job, because i feel like i'm never going to actually get a job. i was just looking for jobs to apply before reading your post, and cant really imagine myself doing any of them. it's a terrible feeling, and it's actually one of the things that started my depression last year (thank god i feel better now).

pls take care, deb! everything is going to be fine for us (and so i hope)

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hasna ✩࿐࿔'s avatar

i loved reading this so much it made my heart melt ♡ it's like you've put my thoughts into the most beautiful words!! I'm 22 as well, this was such a comforting read

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vers's avatar

the lack of energy of mine you quench is beyond levels Deborah. the writing is so well done, I'm in love. Hope the both of us can find ourselves in this massive world of dystopia and make it out successfully 🫶

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madonnainafurcoat's avatar

I honestly love your Substack. It feels like you’re putting my thoughts into words and idk it’s nice to know someone else feels the same way to a certain extent even though we’re at different stages in life 💗💗

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